I'm sitting here in an empty home, surrounded by literally nothing. All of this emptiness brings on an instant feeling of sadness, maybe even loneliness too. It's just me, you, and my laptop in the middle of this vacant room. If you haven't been able to guess already, my boyfriend is moving, and today is our last day together in Maryland. This feeling of solitude is almost inescapable when found in the position I am currently in. Sitting here, I've been alone with my thoughts, and able to connect to other memories I have had in empty homes.
With that said, I can remember that every single time I found myself alone in a home(up until this point) I have been saddened. The physical state of nada, zip, nothing- it doesn't help..but the more I ponder it..I realize it wasn't just that. No more memories were going to be made within those walls by me, and I found myself saying goodbye to the ones I had.
Why does it have to be goodbye?
Maybe I've grown up more since my last empty home, maybe my perception of things has changed, maybe I'm just different, ha ha. Choosing to look at things differently- I look around, see the memories, feel them, and hold them dear to me. The first time I met Karma- that sweet little pup will always have my heart- she licked me square in the face!! That not being the first and only time for that...lol. Thomas, Jessie, Jeremiah, James, and I eating vegetable lasagna on the back porch with wine. We moved the entire dining table and chairs out there, lit candles, and dined in high class fashion! My 25th birthday party was here, and something I will never forget. It's so beautiful to me the way James's friends and mine blend together so well. No one partys like us! The fourth of July. Ghetto flip cup.
Apples to Apples.
Karma's play-dates.
Jessica Scott. Wine.
New Years Dance Party!
James and I dancing in the living room.
Cooking meals made with love.
Meeting Jared Graham and falling in love with him.
Meeting Desiree and Justice- too short of a visit!
Thanksgiving was made into our own little family, and having my Dad, Val, Jax, Jace, and Mace come up made it even better.
I will never forget these loving memories made here at 1425 Odenton. And thank you to everyone who helped make them. I leave here today- not surrounded by sadness, my eyes not welling with tears, but with a smile on my face and you all held dear to my heart.
Peace out Maryland- see you in a few weeks!
